life has been full of ups and down lately. and lots of vital decisions to be made. its more important to know if these decisions are right in the long run. honestly, i dun really know what i am doing these days. i miss life when it was perfect for me. i feel mentally tired and physically drained. but i'll persevere on till i get what i aim for (: jiayou!

weikoon (:

whahas. super long never see this guy and i finally met him at chua chu kang!! (: jiayou for A's !

yesterday while on the way to work, took the train ride with my lovely 2 sisters who was going for their maths tuition (: so fun!! been so long since i last talked to them and played! hahas. while the second sister and me were having fun cam whoring and acting like 2 dumb bimbos! the third sister isolated herself and studied for her chinese test! lolx. reminds me of my schooling days. (oh dear, i sound so old) haha!!

anyway, i THINK i have lovely sisters who have weird characters but i still love them the same (:

me and nur (:
me and fira (:
my siblings!!!

i'm starving at like a freaking 3 am in the morning. oh well. (: anyway, today is like a go back to school day for so many students. honestly, i miss school (: i miss going to school early in the morning with kakwai and boxiong, making a lot of noise in the train, squeezing the bus so that we won't be recorded for late coming. i miss going to school for lectures so that can catch up with friends. I miss going to the house comm room with all my mates. i just miss so many things.!

oh well, learning journey doesn't stop, the places just keep changing. honestly, it feels like i finished my A's yesterday and its actually 4 mths dwn the road to uni. time flies. anyway, taught a primary one boy today, i totally forgot the feeling of being young and curious. asking so many question that i myself as a tuition has a difficulty answering. but it was a fun hour. (:

well, there are negative side of life too - even after so much that happens, some still believe that i still am the small kid they know. Sometimes i just do things to prove people wrong and its sickeningly seriously tiring. why can't you just believe that i can do it? like how i did for my A's. hai. sad life i'm leading during parts of the days. but i know i'll prove him wrong AGAIN like i always do. cos i know (:

feeling so down lately. and its not a usual down. its quite an extreme down :( i want to cry my heart out. i want to leave the world. i want to run away.

Responsibilities is such a yucky word. who the hell invented it must have a lot of time and patience and maybe even tears to sustain the meaning of the word. It hurts to see those dearest to you in pain cause u'll feel the pain. Sometimes i wish i have a powerful eraser to rub everything off. Its so tough to smile these days. I'm lost. VERY LOST. :(

anyway, besides a little pain in my life. went to catch definitely, maybe today(: nice show. worth watching. super nice. the movie was really nice but the companion was nicer(: thanx for brightening up my day !

its been so long since i last blogged. busy with life. life been super down for me lately. sometimes i ever wonder why am i still smiling at the end of the day when the inner me is bleeding out. the boyfriend is leaving for NS so sooon that i feel a sudden lost of support. the emotional rush cant be described. :( just feeling very very very down lately. hope things will get better for me soon. if nt the preparation of a coffin sounds like a good journey for me (:

after a night of fun, it was cam whoring with some very close friends. of cos i have more than 2 friends. just that haven take finish (: soon soon .......... hehe

peifang (:
syafiq (:

today went to support qiuting (F2) cos she is one of the UAN artiste. oh my! she is super elegant.! and everyone was like complementing her lovely never ending legs(: it was quite an experience gain where you get to see all the behind the scene happening.! Media show biz is just so complex and challenging (: which makes everything more fun than ever (:

last week was the hunk challenge which i missed :( looking at all the handsome hunks ''cat walking'' on stage revealing their abs! *faints* this week sexy babes is much hotter! so elegant, so pretty! so talented. well, in my opinions though there are try hard wanna be! and they didnt make it real big in the challenge. i thought no matter what the theme was - people should just relax and be themselves, i'm sure they can pull through even better than trying real hard to be someone. oh well, society always portray beauty so important that it is undeniable that many takes looks heavily these days.

channel U tv station. super duper cool (:
sexy babes(: really sexy!

hahas. Hosting class with mama G and the rest of my friends is becoming more fun than ever(: after all the tactics learning. it was costume play. hahas! i'm like super bad at it cos i usually wear anything that i think will make me look good. given a specific set of costume, i'm lost. hehe. nevertheless i love classes with mama G (:

happy chinese new year and merry christmas
i like the costume! xinru and me (:


p.s anyone willing to take me out of misery ?

+ pisces gurlx
+ she's happy-go-lucky
+ loves dancing cum clubbing
+ loves her mates !
+ taken by him

+ shopping and more shopping!
+ C905 sony erricson
+ ipod touch
+ charles and keith red handbag
+ club marc clutch bag
+ vivie silver heels
+ esprit watch
+ topshop skirt
+ coach wallet
+ buberry handbag
+ velvet boots