i'm still living in the dream world of mine!
i like the picture (:


today was a wonderfully great day =D and i still haven sat down to study. went to bugis to do some survey while rewarding myself with 2 tee-shirts (: i was contemplating since i'm seriously broke. oh well, the money didnt go to food. hai* i've been starving for a week and the money went to shopping. no girls can resists shopping and i believe in that so much!

the feeling of being ultimately poor makes me even wanna press on to earn more cash! (: met with jiahao which made me break my fast as he tempted me with $20 coffee bean voucher! oh dear! he is so smart! and i filled the empty tummy with ice belgian chocolate latte. and thats the only thing i had today :( and now i'm having a fever :( i'm still unsure of the cause - if it is lack of food or because of the swelling thats appearing on my body for no reasons. i'm scared and i wanna get well! i hate the doctors cos i think they always lie about your conditions!! oh well.

accompanied my parents to the IT fair at suntec while they spent their money on a flat screen tv, camera and a desktop for my youngest brother. i was shocked at the way they spent the cash. hahas. new spending methods thanx to me (: so excited about the new design daddy has installed for the living room! and for the first time i had 3 solid hours with my parents uninterrupted. i was super grateful to god for it and i've never seen my parents so happy together in a long time (: and we were chatting about almost everything under the sun. and i realise the only thing i really wanted was a perfect family. thats all !

on the way home, a london call came and i was super happy chatting with my long distant sister! and i met janet, ivy and mama G! i miss UAN (:

i just wanna get well for now.

today was just another day where you unexpectedly turns lucky! where god decide to reward you with many wonderful things! hehe! (:

school was fun =) english tutorial was unexpected. the teacher teaching english is a japanese! and she spoke like more than 5 languages including jap, bahasa indo, malay, english, tagalor, botuk ( dunno how to spell ) i was surprised! i wanna be like her! and so because of her! i shall take up either french or jap nxt sem (: *grins*

and my first ever chinese lecture after skipping 2 weeks of lecture came as quite a shocked! i was sitting beside a friend of mine, super happy that i at least know 1 person in the lecture, trying my very best to understand song, ming and yuan dynasty with still many question marks when i left the lecture theatre! :( i wonder how am i gonna ace this subject when i have a test in the upcoming 2 weeks! *dear me*

oh well, however after school life seems more interesting where i travelled from clementi to jurong and then to kallang and further on to leisure park and ended up celebrating Felicia's birthday in the office (: life's exciting! thanx to the mrt consession i travelled cheap!

on the way home, i was deep in my thoughts on generating income for more shopping to come where suddenly someone flip the table at the nearby hawker and a girl started screaming and a commotion went on. many busy Singaporeans walked over. i wanted to participate but then i thought '' nahx '' and i went back to my thoughts. i've become oblivious to my surroundings i realise. how weird becoming numb of everything.

i wanna get well first!!! den make lots of money and satisfy my shopping cravings! hopefully hanis can go to Bangkok at the end of the year and shop till we drop dead! =) life's full of surprise!

and to dear felicia : Happy 19th birthday! loves (: may all your dreams come true! Nice knowing such a pretty gurl like you! *hugs*

Due to this year's overwhelming response and after several immense hair-pulling cum nail-biting discussion sessions, we regret to inform you that we could not place you in this year's DesDanang team.''

tonight is one of those random nights where fate comes unexpectedly knocking on the door asking you to seize the opportunity given . new knowledge. new experience. i know i can (:

drove down to sentosa! so random (: thats life. every turn in life is always a surprising and fun loving one. i begin to accept everything that is in plan for me. all challenges, all obstacles, all decisions.

just received a pps from one lovely gurl friend of mine. and it fits to what i am going thru right now - everyone has 2 choices to make. they can choose to be sad or they can choose to be happy. they can choose to be defeated or they can choose to succeed. they can choose to live or they can choose to die. and i realise everything changes with the choice i make.

even the mistakes are my choices and the way i react is also my choices. today i choose to be happy! and my whole emotions liven up! (:

drove down! reminds me of the custom when crossing borders
sentosa cove! the houses there so pretty!
went to one of the club. forgot the name. nice concept they have!
and i love my drink - Caribbean freeze (coconut, milk, tropical fruits) yum!
the beach at night. super beautiful! =D

when opportunity comes knocking on the door. never say no. cos when one rejects it. it might never come again.! i finally realise what i really want ! =D

something hilarious happen in sch today. i was suppose to have my chi first tutorial today. and so i was late for 5 mins. however, i couldn't find the classroom. I'm hopeless in navigating around school without hanis! and so after 40 mins of non fruitful search. i gave up. and so i skipped the tutorial. hit my head someone.! oh my =p

still hoping to go vietnam! *cross my fingers*

at the end of the day, it still voice down to how you smile to brightens your day.

was walking along dhoby ghaut yesterday . i totally forgot about the fireworks held in marina ! was too engrossed in other thoughts! den suddenly while walking on the road. u just heard '' bom bom bom! '' and i saw pretty pretty fire works which of cos brighten up the night for me as well as the surrounding skies.!

and i realise life is just like fireworks. hahas. it goes off at one go and everything will disappear after awhile. just hope my life's like that (:


i wanted to get the red and green lights but i was slow ''-__________-

fireworks!!!

*crossing my fingers i wan go vietnam* =D

went for a lovely dinner after work just now at the stadium waterfront and was chatting the topic on life and i realize that maybe life is just a gamble. there are time when you just need to take a step back and see how to improve on the current situation so that you can go higher and further. and both of us were just talking about dreams and our goals and the time flew to close to midnight. sometimes i miss those regular talks with friends, just chilling by the water side and thinking how far can we challenge ourselves in life.

he's a successful business person and here i am just finding a focus in life. 2 people in the different parts of time line in life. I've always admired his ability and determination to complete something he really set off doing. thinking back, I'm still stuck at the education system, trying my very best to at least graduate with beautiful results on that graduation certificate.

i didn't manage to go to jam and hop 2008 as hanis couldn't go :( oh well, there is always next time. but i did manage to catch up with my girlfriend today which was a super happy thing for me(: and besides that i'm starting to once again appreciate the things around me. I'm just a happy go lucky girl and crossing my fingers and praying hard that luck is always on my side (:

a fall is just a test of your persistence and determination to continue the path that you choose and the sense of satisfaction will only come once you succeed ! that is something i've been trying to convince myself to do. yet i still feel the hurt of falling :(

hopefully there's a car available tmr night to ferry me to dinner! *looking forward*

this few days i learn a valuable lesson in life! oh well. i just hit my head real hard on the wall before waking up. and now i'm awake from all the reality facts that i've been classifying as fantasy.

i feel a different kind of energy in me. those kind that i don't really care now. i just want to complete what i wanted initially. achieve my goals and keep my parents happy. (:

school's been great! i wish i'm selected for the Vietnam trip! *cross my fingers* 150 applicants and only 20 will be chosen! though i never failed any interview before, i'm definitely worried this time! everyone seem that they want to go badly! and i want too!! Cambodia trip in 2003 left many wonderful memories (: and i want to achieve another one this year!!

still contemplating what cca to join! went for the free dance blast class. and now contemplating between dance and water sports!!! (: both sounds pretty fun.! whats school without holistic campus life ! =D plus plus! i hope hanis gets to go tmr night for jam and hop 2008 party all night ! am so looking forward to partying my night off!

yay.! best bud (:
nice night view from the top floor of some flats (:

and today was a long day for me. i'm glad everything went on fine(: at least there is still a reason to smile for everything i do.!

burger king in school .. *the over excited girl*

school becoming better. though the body is mainly drained and tired. but mentally i love school (: English lecture was so cool! well, the teacher was cool but i guess the subject can get really dry after awhile. maybe those who graduate as linguists can now become a english teacher in school and students usually hate English cos of the extremely dry content.

and after English was geog! geog was really fun! (: i was considering to major in geog but i really wanna do comms and new media :( so i'll decide next semester. hee! i love geog due to the fantastic variety of fieldtrip and the memoirs of london happenings in JC1 =p and i wanna go so many countries and i wanna learn about social and cultural globalization and natural hazards. geog is forever so happening! i miss mrs tay =D

after school, me and hanis were roaming round school looking for the book shop when we realise all the happening stuffs were at the central library. finally i saw some cute and decent looking guys after a day of hopeless search . hee! and shopping in school resembles shopping in bugis so i got a dress. nice turquoise colour dress (: and the happy girl is satisfied while hanis was grumbling that she wanted to eat burger king! its cool having the whole new concept of a campus life where we do almost anything and everything we want (:

i'm so nervous abt tmr's chinese studies lecture :( everything looks ultra tough. i'm worried and aloneeeeeeeeee :( to think abt it, my long weekend break is round the corner with thurs and fri off! hehe
the always so happening school compound (:


and i've decided to go for dance ! (:

my lovely friend and me (:

today first day of school. and i'm already so drained. like totally. met nat on the corridoor! hahas. and we were screaming. '' bibi!!!'' ''nat!!!!'' hahas. as usual. 2 crazy gurls . oh well. i miss her(:

south asia is super interesting. but hanis was already dozing next to me. going to sch without sch uniform starts to give me a headache as i open the cupboard of mine and paused for a good 30 mins before deciding what to wear.

i so wanna have a hostel at price george!! its so pretty. found this area when me and hanis got lost in school (:

23 august - heading to zouk. hahas. excited ah. school's fun (:

still trying to keep low profile .................................

was just clearing my cupboard which i always do it when i cannot find the clothes i wanna wear. and i realise it hasnt stop expanding since dunno when. but at least its not expanding exponentially =p though i very much still wanna buy more. Who will ever have enough of shopping? hahas. its still my fav thing to do (: makes me really happy!

damn chio!!!!!
my dream cupboard (:

if a little larger i aso dun mind. =p

i've been staring at the comp for almost 30 mins and i have still no inspiration of what subjects to take. I was unsuccessful in the first 2 rounds of bidding for the subjects i want to study. oh dear which made it harder cos the competition level is made much more difficult.

sometimes i wonder, why am i even still studying? its difficult to provide with a definite answer. but since i made it so just take it? is that how life was pre arrange for us? i'm not sure. just tired of the whole bidding thingy. and i'm clueless abt some subjects, in total detest for some and those i want are the popular ones. and thats why its full. haha!

back to my bidding...........

this is gonna be one damn post. so i apologize for the language use first!

f*** all the people who always exaggerate when they talk. i don't understand if everyone has their own butt, it equates to everyone has their own actions and their own mindset. which differentiate the good people from the evil ones.

i only understand that jealousy is present in the universe. but i never understood jealousy can kill till today when i start dying myself. sometimes i really don't understand why people only talk about what they see and they relate to only what they feel is right. have they thought about that if they stupidly interpret wrongly den they will be harming a lot of people ? i am curious at how the human brain works. if everyone is born equal, why are there idiots and geniuses ?

once someone told me, be a crook. its easier to live in the society today. cos being someone good is always difficult. i choose not to believe cos i always believe in good. but my mindset is changing. thanx to the bastards who did this. i don't wish to harm anyone. but i hate it when people start taking things for granted and start talking rubbish. esp. if those things are not something i did.

i finally understand why the govt take freedom of speech away from the people. cos the people don't say what they think. they damn bloody exaggerate what they see.! first time i feel that i wanna kill someone. Singaporeans love to take advantage. i love taking advantages during shopping sales. but i realise in the world today, people loves taking advantage when they are able to gain favoritism. in my personal dictionary '' teacher's pet'' look ard u. there are this kind of ppl everwhere.! sometimes i feel like screaming - be a dog man. teacher's dog !! and i totally despise them!! DESPISE.

i guess there will be plenty of bitches, bastards, idoits, f***ers around, we just need to be extra wary, cautious, careful of them. and only when we know who they are we can eliminate them from our lives to lead a happier and more productive lifestyle. (:

this post is my own personal opinions. if anyone has anything to add on, feel free. but if anyone has anything to comment, den i think just keep it. (: i'm sticking to this stand till i clear the idoits name from my mind.

to all my frens. i love u guys so much (:

smile!!

hahas. went for a swim today (: feels like home. love the waters. well. didnt manage to gym yesterday cos there were too many ppl and i dont like many ppl in a room exercising. feels weird. and so shall gym either tmr or thursday and swim on friday (:

living a healthy lifestyle! hahas. my craziness is back. i wanna lose weight!!!!!!!!



plane view! (:
sun rise (:
buildings in hk are much higher than s'pore!
wanna return home also need to queue :(
this was wad the joke was all abt!! economy + !
yay! happily returned (:

i miss my camera so much! its still with my mummy! and i haven upload photos since ages . at least that is what i feel! (:

nothing much happen this few days! just lots of catching up with my family and friends! hehe. will try to get the photos online tonight >.<

went to hongkong for a day trip! the feeling of being in Singapore in the morning. hongkong in the afternoon and back in Singapore at night. the feeling is super cool (: and sat the economy plus! hahas. it was the first time i knew there is a section known as economy plus. i cracked a joke with my friend. and the conversation went something like this :


oh dear.. ''-______________________________- but i couldn't stop laughing la. overall, it was cool. had pictures taken as usual. will upload them soon once i get it on the comp(:

went back to school for bidding today! thanx to faruq and his friends. it went on pretty well! (: thanx for the ramly burger too! i think when school really starts, its gonna be one fun semester, having hanis with me for almost every class is super cooL! (: though we might spend half the time trying to have fun . oh well, school's suppose to be that way anyway! trying to find the nicest food.. the cutest guy's dorm.. the most relaxing place to slack when we skip lectures.. i love my school(:


hahas. thats how much fun it can be when you put 2 best friends together! and i love the skinny and scrawny sis of mine !

valuable lesson learnt today:
can't really rely on anyone except yourself. you will never know when the person will turn behind your back and stop helping you. it hurts but i realise crying over it makes one feel real weak! and i just hate the feeling. its not about the situation you are in that makes one real depressed but the people who are hurting you in the situation esp. if they are those u care.

i'm lost :(

+ pisces gurlx
+ she's happy-go-lucky
+ loves dancing cum clubbing
+ loves her mates !
+ taken by him

+ shopping and more shopping!
+ C905 sony erricson
+ ipod touch
+ charles and keith red handbag
+ club marc clutch bag
+ vivie silver heels
+ esprit watch
+ topshop skirt
+ coach wallet
+ buberry handbag
+ velvet boots