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Screams
Sunday, September 21, 2008
its been quite some time since i blog! hahas (: been out so many days! haven had the time to sit and finish my homework :( oh dear! hahas. i lost my motivation to sit for 5 hours to complete my school work! i need a study partner! since darling is in NS. no one motivates me to study! hahas.and i have to survey the market at bugis later (: hopefully nothing gets out of my wallet. can't wait for tmr !!!!!
there is something which has been in my mind ever since a talk with a close friend on friday. trust. how do one define trust in today's modern world.? Are humans really so scary that they will go to every extent to just hurt one person if they are jealous, hurt or sth. i was really surprised at how a simple action could lead to a major desructive consequence.
i choose to look everything just on the surface for the simple reason that i want to live in a perfect world. however its a complicated society we live in and after last night talk on the phone, i really start to believe that trust only exist up till maybe 70%. no one can be trusted fully. even the closest to you will hurt you if they feel that you are nice to take advantage of. but people are not clever enough, they leave behind loopholes to tell people that they are the culprit.
to think back, i did sacrifice a lot of cash to learn the real meaning of friends and family. but i'm still ignorant. i guess its time for me to wake up and face reality. change can be for the better for for the worst. i want to change my perception of people now. i'm tired of being a good girl. maybe just maybe i wanna try being a bad girl and get accepted to the cruelty of society. but i always have this simple thought - that if today you are willing to betray your close friends, what makes you think you won't betray your own family. thanx for the advice. i'll be real cautious of the people around me.
Saturday, 20 september 2008
went out with my dear boy yesterday since its gonna be the last saturday i see him before a long time. i promise a nice post for him (: though the sweet pictures that we took is stuck in the camera cause daddy forgot where he placed the wire. but not to worry. it'll be up when i miss him real bad in this 7 weeks - guard duty, hari raya, his training course, his brunei trip :( that adds up to 7 weeks! but i'm not a good girl. i'll go to his camp to find him on friday night, hopefully he'll sneak out to see me =)it was just a sweet simple date where at the end of the day it left me smiling sweetly cause its one of the wonderful memories you can ever want. and after being pampered for weeks, he couldn't get the car so we had to travel on public transport. its not so bad la. its definitely much cheaper than the bills of the cashcard and fuel.
contemplated for a movie to watch since its been a long time since i last catch a movie with him. i so wanna catch mama mia ! lets see i haven seen a nice movie with farhan for at least 4 mths =p haha! but due to the horrendous long queue at plaza sing. i'm lazy (: and so we settled for just a walk and some shopping if out pockets got itchy. headed to town. and let me repeat myself at how small my hometown is that i was in town almost everyday this week! argh! *sad*
what i thought was super cute was both of us were so tired cos of fasting, we went to royal onscotts hotel where the lobby was full of sofa in front of the receptionist counter, lie on his shoulder and i fell asleep for an hour (: *grins* and hanis was like " who sleeps on a date ? " and u have ur answer right in front of u. hahas! sorry dear! i was tired. and his shoulder was nice (: a date is not what u do that matter! is who u are with. though i fell asleep. i'm still happy at the end of the day. haha!
and dear, if you happen to be reading this. i love you (: i did a lot of stupid mistakes in the past and i didn't listen to you . but then at the end of the day. i'm still back in your arms. though i might still continue making stupid mistakes, i know you'll be there to protect me. and i know many people will kill me if i were to make any rash decision again. and yea. i wan our dream to come true.!
i was also just casually chatting with a friend that its not the quantity time that you see your boyfriend that makes you treasure him more. but the quality time where 2 people just sit down and do nothing and just being with each other. it takes a lot of sacrifices but at the end of the day you know everything is worth it. hopefully it allows you to make a decision ((:
Friday, 19 september 2008
anyway, went to clarke quey on friday night to complete my geog project and it was really an eye opener for me. geog couldn't be more fun (: globalisation has always been my favourite topic and a project on globalisation is something i couldn't ask for more (: and Singapore River Festival is one of our ideas! haha. its so rock band music. reminds me of all the bay beats and hard rock music farhan used to bring me.! (:while walking down clarke quey i had this sudden thought of clubbing. never done before. it sounds real scary when my friends relate their experiece to me. but it sounds fun! hahas. well. chang ming!!!! lets club soon (: see if the guys wanna go! miss u guys so much man.
back on my project, we were suppose to interview people and do a report on it. me and hanis. we were like scared. den when we finally picked on 3 males. we realise they were drunk! was an experiece but i was like yucks.! hahas. so many handsome foreigners were there. was trying really hard to pick the good looking ones for the interview. its a superficial world today. u wanna live in this world. u need to have looks. i strongly believe in that (: and if u don't have a qualifying looks. sorry like what donald trump always say - you're fired. life's a game . its either u win or u lose !
Singapore River Festival
i like my top :)
hahas. thai food
haha! the male interviews for the day! AMERICANS!
yay! me and hanis (: